Let There Be Light

Let There Be Light

I’m out with lanterns, looking for myself.   Emily Dickinson

Sometimes things happen, that change our perceptions of who we are. That’s where I have been for the past 6 months, or more. I have suffered with anxiety and depression my whole life, but something wasn’t right this time. I decided to bring in the professionals, and I am so glad I did. Covid-19 and being rather isolated, to protect my mother with Alzheimers, has been really tough on me.

In an effort to turn things around, I started reading about the benefits of journaling your feelings. I tried bullet journaling, a couple years ago, and that lasted about a week. I have a gratitude journal, that I write in occasionally, but it’s hard to be grateful when you’re not feeling it. I read about art journaling and it seemed like a good option. It allows you to tell a visual story, with collage, paint, inks and all kind of media. Of particular interest to me, it can be amended anytime, with additional layers. I watched several videos, and was particularly intrigued with gel printing. I bought myself a small gel plate set, and used the brayer, I had from Ruth’s paper lamination class. It was a lot of fun, and husband Brian, got interested too. We signed up for an online class, Mastering the Layers with Carolyn Dube.

This article was coming up, and I thought a Multi Media Art Journal, would provide a perfect way for me to express all my different art interests. I found this wonderful journal, made by Ranger, that has fiber pages; denim, burlap, and heavyweight cotton paper. (Dina Wakley Media Journal – Blue Edition) This journal is perfect for expressing myself and the things I love.

For this article, I created the title page. I decided to include many fibers, and my related interests on this important page. My title “Love the Journey” reflects the new path I plan to uncover. I found an old set of magnetic letters, headed for the trash bin, and put them to use.



The butterfly was made from a gel print. The antennae was made from denim threads that raveled off the page. The right corner shows, some hand dyed coral silk lapp, cut from a wet felted piece I did quite a while ago. The blue pieces of knitting and crochet, are a combination of 2 threads; silk covered stainless steel, and a lace weight yak/alpaca/silk blend dyed by me. The silk covered stainless steel is one of those things, that seemed like a good idea when I bought it, yet has languished in a yarn bowl for years. Now, I have all sorts of ideas on ways to use it.


I included my shrink plastic and metal pieces, and embroidered them on the page with linen thread. The plastic hearts were a last minute addition to show humor is always a good thing.


12 thoughts on “Let There Be Light

  1. Hello Capi.
    The journal is lovely with all its different textile pages – it just invites you to fill them!
    Your first page is a joy with so many techniques and media.
    Is the silk covered stainless steel difficult to work with?

    1. Thank you, and yes the yarn was quite easy to work with. It’s quite thin, so for this purpose I added a lace weight with it. If you look at the photo, the SS is the electric blue. I can’t locate the tag, but I purchased it from Neighborhood Fiber Co. (Baltimore, Maryland) at Stitches Midwest. The yarn called Chromium; 69% silk Noil/31% Stainless Steel, 440yds/1oz, recommended needle US-3 thru US-8 and knits up at 4-8sts/inch. It is still available at the shop, and they say it “knits up much like linen.” I’m thinking of making some earrings with it now!

  2. Isn’t it amazing how creating something can make you feel so much better? You can lose yourself in it for hours on end. (I find it a good way to keep the weight down too as I forget to eat when I’m involved like that)
    I hope you will keep us up to date with your lovely journal. I’m sure that it will help you with your anxiety problems. It seems that finding a way to “write” it out of you does work. You have only to look at Elgar’s Cello Concerto. I believe that he wrote this after his wife died and wrote a lot of his sadness into it. I understand that it helped him to come to terms with his loss, I certainly find it difficult to listen too without becoming melancholy.
    So keep “writing”.

    1. Thank you, Ann. I hope this journal will be a regular part of my articles, and keep me more focused. The size is perfect for smaller endeavors too. 👍🏻

  3. What a great way to get the feeling out and remind yourself it isn’t just the end that matters. It is hard to remember that sometimes.
    Silk covered stainless steel is something I would probably buy and not know what to do with it. it just sounds so cool. I have a friend that knits and weaves metal.

    1. I feel better already, Ann, just getting everyone’s comments. Brian is such a loving yarn and fiber arts enabler. ❤️ I feel a tug, that the yarn was destined, for this exact moment!

  4. Capi, I loved reading about your journal, and the story behind it affects so many today, and I’m glad that you are feeling better. I agree with Ann and Elgar’s music too; I’ve been listening to it a lot over the last few months.

  5. Hi Capi. Thanks so much for sharing the start of your beautiful journal. I’m sorry you’ve been having such a difficult time. It’s really great that you’ve found the courage to get some professional help and that you’ve clearly set about some self-help too with your journal. I wish you all the best in exploring your journey and look forward to seeing how your pages develop.

  6. Thanks Capi for sharing your journey with us. It is a brave thing to do but I am sure many of our readers will benefit from hearing your perspective. The mixed media journal is very cool and I do believe that journaling is an excellent self help method. So keep moving forward and I look forward to the next installment.

  7. Capi I totally sympathise, so thank you for bravely sharing the start of your journey.
    I look forward to seeing how it develops & hope it aids your journey.

  8. An art journal sounds like a very positive step to take Capi and what a lovely journal you’ve chosen to work with. Enjoy your journey and thanks for sharing!

  9. Hi Capi, thank you for sharing the first part of your journal with us all. I believe art and emotions are inextricably linked I have heard that if one wants to turn on creativity, listen to Mozart! Looking forward to seeing more of your journal. I hope it continues to bring you as much joy personally as it does to me viewing it. Take good care of yourself ❤

We'd love to hear your thoughts!

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

%d bloggers like this: